This is actually a post that I contemplated writing last night but then I realized that eating ice cream in bed while breastfeeding and attempting to type was probably a bad idea. I'm a good multi-tasker but not that good. And yes I did eat ice cream in bed. I know that eating in bed is the worst habit to have but yesterday was one of those days and I was toast. It was me taking a moment to myself and it's not something I usually do.
Yesterday was a crazy day and I'm hoping that today will be better. I learned two things yesterday. Both of which led me to untold levels of frustration. The first thing I learned actually has to do with my car.
We purchased a new car this summer. It's a Mazda 5 which is a mash up of a station wagon and minivan. It seats six and seemed to be the best fit to our needs and budget. We asked all the usual questions and that did include the inevitable question on how it handles in the snow. Living in the northeast that's an important question. More so when you live on a hill like we do. We were told that it did well and we bought the car. I love the car generally speaking. It handles really well in rain and normal conditions, is comfortable, gets good gas mileage, and fits two children's car seats with room to spare in either of the two back rows. What I found out yesterday is that my car sucks in the snow. An inch to an inch and a half fell the night before last and when I tried to get out of the driveway and onto the road my car simply did not move. I was stepping on the gas and my car was practically standing still. My car doesn't have winter tires but it does have all-season tires. Sadly, I think my husband's Toyota Corolla does better in the snow than my Mazda. I am really disappointed about that. The fact that I wanted a car with all wheel drive at the least was a common point of discussion, if not contention, between my husband and I. I felt (and still feel) that we should have at least one car that can get us out of our driveway and to another place if necessary. My husband was very persuasive and so were the facts about our finances. An all-wheel drive vehicle is expensive. Many of them were more expensive used than our new car. Granted, we got a real deal on the Mazda but still. It's something that I really don't understand. Minivans are supposed to be family cars but most families can't afford them. It's crazy! Needless to say I really missed my Jeep yesterday. Even without it being in four wheel drive it could have easily plowed through the snow yesterday. I'm more than a little frustrated but I suppose that learning how to drive this front wheel car in the snow is going to be a learning experience. Maybe that's a good thing? I'm not quite sure yet.
Lesson number two from yesterday: It is possible to return to breastfeeding. I know that everyone says is possible from doctors to experienced moms who have gone though what I have. Really though, until you do it yourself I feel that you're always going to be a bit skeptical. Sunday was my first day back to breastfeeding my daughter (now over a month old!) after ten days on a harsh antibiotic that made me unable to breastfeed unless I wanted to give my daughter a serious case of the runs and a high probability of dehydration. For ten days I did the pump and dump and took my antibiotics to cure my mastitis infection. (Really painful, by the way.) All the while I saw my milk production dwindling and I was wondering if I was going to be able to breastfeed my daughter at all when I was done with the meds and the infection was gone. My mother-in-law and doctor said that with a bit of work it would be possible. Yesterday was the hardest day since Sunday (so far) because my little princess was basically eating all day. I got nothing done and I was frustrated and tired by the end of the day. That's not usually the best combo for me. On top of which my ta-tas were exceedingly sore which made me even grumpier. The up side of all of this is that I have been able to get her to eat on my left side which was the problem side since the start. It still can be a bit of a fight because she has to work harder to get the milk flowing and there isn't as much there as on the right but it's a start!
So that brings me to today. I have to get all the things done today that I didn't get done yesterday. We'll see if it all works out that way. Furthermore we're supposed to go pick out a tree today and so I need to prep the living room for that. My princess just started crying again so I'm off to feed her and hope that today won't be a repeat of yesterday...
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